medical stuff....

I hate to admit it but I detest doctor's so much so that I really never go see a physician unless I am about to have a baby or worse have strep throat...seriously strep is up there with my maximum pain threshold...over the years little things like bronchitis,a small blood pressure issue and my asthma I ignore...hey supposedly I have exercised enduced asthma so I stopped exercising.......lol.....okay okay......and ...although I am trying to hold onto 39.....I realize its time for a physical and mammogram to prepare myself for my early 40's.....I need to keep my health in check for my kids......heck Katie is only 5.......I know its a responsibility I have as a parent...seriously if I didn't have kids I probably would avoid doctors altogether.....I just can't wrap my head around the fact that my girlfriend Careen wanted to be a nurse and work in a hospital...I get queasy the moment I step through the front doors of any medical building or hospital....the faintness and headache...the feeling of sickness comes over me...maybe its the smell of bad hospital food or its seeing people hooked up to machines and tubes in places they shouldn't be....the feeling of death is eminent and I can't wait to run the hell the other way.....and forget about eating.....can you really eat dinner after a day at the hospital......and I always find myself dodging the smokers outside the hospital doors..finding temptation to yell at them....um......hello.....did you see the cancer patients inside..duh?.......anyways so I finally did it...went for my annual physical....okay I haven't really seen a doctor since Katie was born...yes she is turning 6 in April...........I told ya...I hate doctors.....my mammogram is scheduled for Thursday...supposedly that hurts like hell.....but I can take it as long as it doesn't hurt as bad as strep throat..........and my cardiologist appointment is today.....yeah I kinda have a blood pressure issue....no worries ..no medication at this point but I need a 24 hour monitor put on me to wear at home..to check my ups and downs......this problem came to my attention back in my 20's...when I tried to get birth control pills at the university and the doctor refused because my blood pressure was an issue....hey I am okay...no problems yet.............and then today...the doctor's office calls....my blood work is back...and shows I am anemic....low iron....damn......so that explains some of the dizziness and fatigue....yeah yeah...I know what you are thinking....I should have just stayed away from the doctor's office....I would still be thinking in my mind how healthy I am instead of now suddenly feeling sick and weak.....damn doctors......lol.....